Seven weeks old

Here are some pictures of Estrella and different visitors, also when we took Estrella to visit our old neightbor Mrs Mac. She was tickled to see Estrella.
Esrella is 7 weeks now, she is a cutie pie. She demands a lot of my time and even though I truly enjoy taking care of her, having her and the permanency of it has made me think about myself. What am I and what am I going to be, how much more am I going to need to feel fullfilled besides being a mom. I don't think I felt fulfilled with what I did in my life/career before Estrella came along, and now it seems that I could use motherhood to fill that hole. How long will that last before I start feeling the hunger for more again. Of course now, with a baby, it is more difficult to go after or try different things. Estrella is and always will be a big part of my life, I just think that I don't want to make her my whole life, it wouldn't be fair to her and in the end I would just be frustrated. I guess for now, I have no choice but to be a mom, and may be take the time to think and pray about opportunities to find something that will bring more fullfilment in my life. What if God only wants me to be a mom and a wife? i guess if that is so I would have to bow my knee to that and pray that He take away the yearning and desire for more